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The list.

'Lets find something exciting to bring your sparks back' - said a friend to me. When i told him im no longer see the life as exciting as it was.

While busy finding the rootcause, i think i'll just write things down.

Of who i wanna be, of what i seek, of what i find exciting.

Either to grab back the sparks, or as a lists of things i must do before my death.

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So here's my top list!

1. Volunteering. Teaching kids, developing a district, contribute to a conservation. 
2. 

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