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Is it really a 'Serendipity'?

 17th Aug, 24.

It's never too late to start writing back, no?

I decided to open up this blog and start writing some thoughts,knowing that life has been a bit chaotic the past few months. Maybe if i could take a word to describe, i'll choose 'Serendipity'.

Serendipity. noun. ser·​en·​dip·​i·​ty ˌser-ən-ˈdip-ət-ē : 

the gift of finding valuable or agreeable things not looked for.

Kalo gue tarik mundur the exact 6 bulan ke belakang, gue sadar i found so many new faces, places, & created memories yang gue ga pernah expect untuk ada dari dulu. People i thought never exist suddenly came up with each of their unique roles. Gue cukup banyak mengambil keputusan lucu yang impact ke hidup gue significantly sampai hari ini. And most of them--adalah sesuatu yang gue ga pernah benar-benar cari atau expect to happen. Like it was just, happened, accidentally.

Six months ago, i declared myself that i loved someone, let's call him M, i loved him so much that I thought i wont let myself fall into others' action, words, or existance.

Sad to know that I couldnt stop myself from being attracted to someone else, let's call him X, which a totally an evil decision and i wish i couldve never done that again. I thought, this idea wouldve just stopped there, maybe a week or two, maybe things will passed away, maybe it's just sparks thats gonna burn down soon. Turns out, it wasnt. The chaotic didnt stop there. 

Time goes by and GOD certainly play his role so well. He gave me another path-which always crossed-effortlessly, which again, keep the sparks burning, even brighter and bigger than what I experienced months ago.

I kept asking to myself, is it just because i couldnt bare the loneliness? Or is it because I trully click to this guy? Does god let this happen to give me another karma and lesson? Or are we gonna be together, like for real?


((to be continued))

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