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Hi, Riq

 To my dearest buddy--well now is my boyfriend, Naufal Ariq, i have no idea if someday you'll read this words or no. I probably wont show this to you and i am sorry for keeping this as a secret. 

Deep down, im truly happy for your existence. Youre like a sun after my stormy days. You brought uncountable laughs, joys, and im totally grateful for having you around. As a bestfriend, and now a boyfriend, which---i still never expected this. When i heard that you love me too, i wouldnt believe it. 

But for real it, please let me be kind and treat you well with no fears, no doubts, without being scared of watching you leave like others in my past. 

Please let me love you slowly, unconditionally, without me needing to ask for anything in return because i believe you'll do things for me without i have to explain. 

Please make things easy for us and i will do the same. 

Please stay, please let me be your light in your darkest days, let me be your home when you're exhausted of everything thats going on in your world. Please put your trust and faith in me, in us. I love you unconditionally and i always will.

 I cant express how grateful i am for having you here, Riq. Its like a gift, a huge gift, the one id always ask but never expected to come this fast. 

I'll try my best to not hurt you. Not in any ways i have done in my past. Let me help you to achieve your goals and dreams. Let me fill your days, know you better, be the part of your future plans. 

Let me love you as much as i love my family and peers. 

Let me give you the whole world you deserve ya Riq. 

It may sounds weird or whatever it is for saying this in our very first day of dating but i do love you and will root for you, for us! 

Let me be your most comfortable place to tell how your day was and lets keep things real, no secret (except i do love you so much) :D. 

Im more than ready to be your partner for growth. I'll see you soon in other continent, i guess?

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