Gue bener2 clueless bgt sm hidup gue lately. Curiously thinking, 7 bulan terakhir rasanya kaya lagi floating, ngga tau mau ke mana, ga tau apa yg gue kerjain bakal menghasilkan apa, ga tau akan ada di posisi ini berapa lama, sampe kapan. I just dont have any destination to go, and im going nowhere. Gue rasanya kaya lagi running on treadmill, keep doing it tapi ga tau ujungnya akan sampe di mana. I just live, with no goals, no ambitions, no dreams, no hopes. Feel like im losing myself bgt. Gue ga bener-bener punya orang yg gue percaya buat cerita. Too sad to be open up anyway. Yakin gue berani nangis2 being true to people? Sama temen lama aja gue ga berani. Sama orang terdekat apa lagi. Sama keluarga?oh, nopeee. All they knew is im beyond happy sm hidup gue sekarang. Or at least, kalo gue ngerasa gue kosong, ujung2nya cuma diminta buat "banyakin bersyukur". And what i believe the most is, people hate me when i'm showing my true colors; desperate, gloomy, and sad. Orang2 g...